Wild mind, wild thoughts

_      My mind is wild. Has it ever happened that you can’t stop thinking about other things, and can’t concentrate on the thing you’re doing? Well I've been doing this for weeks. Things have been blazing through my brain. Things like do I really want to go to college or is everyone just saying I want to? “What will I do in the future?” These questions are roiling like boiling water in my head. The most important question in my head is: What will happen if I just wanted to take a break, and go anywhere? What if I just leave and never came back? The thing in my head is saying, “Go away, leave and never come back.” What if I had nowhere to go and no money to spend? If I had cash I still have nowhere to go. Maybe it's because I'm used to moving around and not staying in one place. I'm turning 18 on August 17 this year. The voices are still blowing up in my skull. I'm still trying to think if I should listen to these voices in my head and leave, or stay and fight the voices. I'm just hoping I'll make the right choice. There are two paths; one’s bad and one’s good. The problem is I don't know which one is good or bad.