Time is a peculiar phenomenon: Days and years pass by way too fast and yet when you're actually living each day and hour they pass so slowly. As I look into my not- so- far- off- future, many questions start to flood my mind. But one seems to prevail over all: “Am I in over my head?” From where I sit now, writing this blog, life seems easy. It's like a trance where I just write what I feel at the moment, but soon the trance is broken and reality hits me like a frying pan to the back of the head.
When I look at my transcript from Kenny Lake School I know I have succeeded at being a “book smart” student. But as I go to apply for college and for the Free Application For Student Aid, I realize I have not been so successful at learning how to live in the world. I have applied for college and have been accepted, but what is my next move? What do I do when I get there? How do I even get there whether that is money or even transportation? Do I even know how to get around? How do I fill out taxes? How do I do anything besides schoolwork?
School has become my life for 13 years, and it's as if I have been brainwashed to do nothing else. School is all about learn this and do this math equation, but where are the practical lessons we should learn? In class you follow what a teacher tells you to, you sit quiet and answer questions when called upon. But in life there will be a time when you have to come up with something without instruction, when you have to speak up, and when you need to do the opposite of what you are told. Have I been prepared to leave this school in less than three months and succeed at whatever I want to do? Do I even know at all what I am supposed to do? I feel like a lost puppy drifting through the sands of time, not really knowing what to expect when I leave here. So I pose the question for many of us “Am I in over my head?”
When I look at my transcript from Kenny Lake School I know I have succeeded at being a “book smart” student. But as I go to apply for college and for the Free Application For Student Aid, I realize I have not been so successful at learning how to live in the world. I have applied for college and have been accepted, but what is my next move? What do I do when I get there? How do I even get there whether that is money or even transportation? Do I even know how to get around? How do I fill out taxes? How do I do anything besides schoolwork?
School has become my life for 13 years, and it's as if I have been brainwashed to do nothing else. School is all about learn this and do this math equation, but where are the practical lessons we should learn? In class you follow what a teacher tells you to, you sit quiet and answer questions when called upon. But in life there will be a time when you have to come up with something without instruction, when you have to speak up, and when you need to do the opposite of what you are told. Have I been prepared to leave this school in less than three months and succeed at whatever I want to do? Do I even know at all what I am supposed to do? I feel like a lost puppy drifting through the sands of time, not really knowing what to expect when I leave here. So I pose the question for many of us “Am I in over my head?”